My heart loves loyalty

Ya Rabb.. when my heart cries theres nobody heard it but You.

Ya Rabb if You choose me a husband from this duniya let him be loyal to me here and hereafter. 

For as much as You don’t like associationism of worshiping You is as much as I don’t like associationism of loving me ya Rabb. 

For how much You possess Oneness of You and tauhid is as much as I love the Oneness of beloved in heart. 

For how much You hate and preventing us betrayal of You and the Deen in any form, is how much I hate betrayal in any of it forms.

 Ya Rabb, if You are mad at me for asking of what my heart hope of You, then who is going to listen to me other than You, ya Rabb.. :’ 

For whom are there is going to understand my tears and my hope other than You ya Rabb..my Creator. 

Ya Rabb if You choose me a husband from this duniya then let him be loyal to me. 

For I love loyalty in all of it forms ya Rabb.. 
For my heart loves loyalty in all of it forms.


10/9/2016

True happiness in marriage

Marriage is not what most of us thought and what the dramas in the television had shown to us.

As much as I write and express, I love to observe too.

Today I saw a muslim couple with a perhaps 5 year old child in a restaurant here in Dublin. And out of sudden the child threw up everything that she had eaten, and she was crying heavily. Her clothes were in dirt, and the table as well as the floor was accumulated with the vomit. The father quickly grab tissues from his wife and ask for plastic from the waiter at the restaurant. As the mother brought the child upstairs to the toilet for cleaning her up, the father used the tissues and cleaned up the heavy mess by his own. When he saw me observing him from the starting of the incidence, he stopped and said I am sorry. I replied it was really okay and theres nothing to be sorry for.

You see, when he was cleaning the vomit, it shows how much he lowers his ego while this incidence happened at public. For me, this is a praiseful attitude and action that he had done. This is what we called love and ikhlas. Love is when you lowers your ego for your beloved. When he did that with much efforts, I mean he could just let the waiters there to do their job, but he sincerely clean up the mess that his child done. Why? Because, it is called ikhlas. He is 'ikhlas' doing it for the sake of Allah. Ikhlas is when you give and do things without expecting any rewards from it. MashaAllah.

This is maybe a very small circumstance that happened during marriage. But subhanaAllah. Marriage is not just the unity of two souls and the coming together of two souls who interested in each other. Marriage is way more than that. True happiness in marriage requires ikhlas. I mean, look at the father, he clean it up without any raising voice to the child, and he did not just left the wife to do all of that. It is so beautiful. For me it is such a beautiful view. May Allah bless the family so much.

True happiness in marriage requires both partners to lower their egos and to be ikhlas, sincerely love and take care of each other for the sake of Allah. You don't leave and hate your spouse when your spouse is sick and cannot entertain you or in certain condition that make the spouse angry; for example when your spouse is hungry right? Hence, it is called ikhlas.

Ikhlas is when you love or do anything only for the sake of Allah. Ikhlas doesn't requires conditions and reasons. In the Quran, Allah has expressed three beautiful description about marriage. It is 'mawadda' , 'rahmah' and 'litaskunu ilaiha' (sakinah). What is 'mawadda'? 'Mawadda' in arabic come from root word 'wud' which comes from the attribute of Allah, Al Waduud. It means pure, sincerely love without reasons and conditions. For me, it means you love the strength and the weakness of a person. Thats called ikhlas. You love them when they are beautiful, and also when they are not. You love them when they are healthy as well as when they are sick. You love them when they are soft and tender as well as when they are mad and harsh (certain limit that is alright in Islam) especially when people are tired. You love them just for the sake of Allah. Sincerely want to bring them and be with them together in Jannah.

'Rahmah' is mercy and affectionate. Why did Allah choose 'rahmah' here among of all other quality that a marriage should have? Because 'rahmah' is when you put another person, for example your spouse more that yourself. You are selfless. You have mercy on your beloved. You consider about their feelings and their emotions. Their sadness is your sadness, and their happiness is your happiness. That is affectionate mercy. That is rahmah.

When both of the spouses have this, Allah will put peace (sakinah) inside their marriage. There will be 'qurratun a'yun' (coolness of eyes and heart) as being mentioned in the Quran. There will be very less arguments to the extend inshaAllah there will be no fights at all. That is the true happiness in marriage.

So coming back to myself, of course I've never experienced all of these, but as I said, since I was a child I love to observe. And for me, this is one of the happiness that Allah had said in the Quran that really we should make du'a and passionately work into it.

For me marriage is a conclusion of being able to lower your ego, to love and do things ikhlas (sincerely) for Allah and especially to be able to get out from your comfort zones. In order for us to be ready for all of these (of course only Allah knows when but we have to make efforts as well), it requires tarbiyah. Tarbiyah (education and discipline) of our own selves, hearts, attitudes, akhlaq and our ibadah to Allah so much. We may not be fully perfect because theres so much to learn inside the marriage itself, but it is that we try our best to tarbiyah ourselves just for the sake of Allah.

May Allah help and ease us all and give us true happiness in marriage only for the sake of Allah. May Allah instil in us ikhlas and love for the sake of Allah, knowing deeply, the only love that will be lasting is when you love people for Allah. May Allah bless all of us beautiful marriage in duniya till Jannah.

Ameen ya Rabb.


With love,
Nadia.

Tidak ada perubahan

"Ingatlah wali-wali Allah itu, tidak ada rasa takut pada mereka, dan mereka tidak bersedih hati. 

(Iaitu) orang-orang yang beriman dan senantiasa bertakwa.

 Bagi mereka berita gembira dalam kehidupan di dunia dan di akhirat. 

Tidak ada perubahan bagi janji-janji Allah. 

Demikian itulah kemenangan yang agung"

 (Surah Yunus : 62-64) 

When I recite this ayah, I feel ya Allah. Its so deep to my heart. Because of the words of Allah when Allah said 'tidak ada perubahan'. How do I feel ya Allah... When your love is so true for those who search for You in their life....

Allah kata 'tidak ada rasa takut pada mereka... dan mereka tidak bersedih hati'

MashaAllah.. its so subhanaAllah to the heart. Sometimes we are scared of duniya, of what will happen in our future, and that fear make us so sad in the heart, but Allah said no, you shall not face fear and sadness of the heart. Can you imagine subhanaAllah... i thought the only place to not feel these things are in Jannah. But no..

Allah has promised here.. to whom?

Allah said the next ayah.. 'orang-orang yang beriman dan senantiasa bertakwa'. MashaAllah. Can you feel this. When Allah said orang orang yang beriman it means - those who have faith in Allah, the faith that can destroy mountains. SubhanaAllah. Keyakinan dalam hati yang terlalu amat yang sehinggakan disebabkan keyakinan itu ia dapat menghancurkan gunung. Thats faith. ya Allah. May Allah gives us complete faith and trust to Him so much. Ameen. And Allah said the next character is yang sentiasa bertakwa. Those who always have fear of Him in heart and conscious of Him. Always think of Him, always remember of Him. SubhanaAllah. Do you know something? Actually...

Truth to be told is when you think of Allah, Allah is thinking about you. 

:')

And then Allah says beautiful things, that my heart cannot breath properly.. and my chest ya Allah. Only You can feel me deeply ya Allah because You are the One who put 'ruh' (soul) inside us from You ya Allah. 

Allah said 'bagi mereka berita gembira dalam kehidupan di dunia dan di akhirat'. MashaAllah. Berita gembira (bushra - in arabic) its something that you can be please with, its a good news for you. MashaAllah. Like good news for you both for here and hereafter. SubhanaAllah. you know what I feel when I read this verse? I feel ya Allah Allah wants to comfort us so much. Allah said, good news for you. 

And then Allah said the next ayah that if the the heart is so much engraved with this verse it just so heavy that it would tears the heart and because of the deep joy that the heart feels. Allah said 'tidak ada perubahan bagi janji-janji Allah'. Ya Allah, Allah kata tidak ada perubahan. Can you feel it? Allah kata tidak ada perubahan. MashaAllah. Like.. 'Those are My promises to you, that you will receive good news for both duniya and akhirah, and there is No change in My words' 

MashaAllah ya Allah. It can't get more convincing than these ya Allah. 

This is so beautiful from You ya Allah.

Thank You ya Allah. 

***

May we be one of them, whose Allah has kept secret hidden in only His knowledge alone. 

Nobody could know who are them except Allah alone. 

May Allah kept us in the most humble path of being His true slaves. 

Dan Ingatlah

Allah menentukan pemberian rahmatNya itu kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya; dan (ingatlah), Allah mempunyai limpah kurnia yang besar.


Dan Ingatlah.

Dan Ingatlah.

Dan Ingatlah.

The smallest thing

For, Allah He is ya Sami’ 

The All Hearing and All Listening…

How do I tell you this name of Allah so much?

You know when your friends talk to you so much that you listen to your friend, but suddenly in between time that is running, your mind was somewhere else and thinking good about Allah and said in your heart 'ya Allah perhaps You will give me guidance and love always…’.. that time when your friend doesn’t know your heart is talking to Allah, at that time….knew that, He heard you. 

SubhanaAllah. :'

And then you know when you walk upon street at dark night where theres chill and fear, that silence surrounding you but you keep on walking, trusting Allah will protect you and your heart reciting His words, that is the time… that moment.. knew that He up there.. He listened to you. 

For everywhere you go, between the time, between the hurt, between the laughter, between the tears, between the feelings and emotions, He heard you attentively.

Allah doesn’t just listen to you. But He give you, His full attention. 

Your heart is tiny... really tiny. But what your heart want, is limitless and endless. Have you ever wonder why? Because your heart, your soul are created to be with Him in Paradise where its limitless, where its endless and nothing that will break you. There is where your heart belong. 

But really knew that your heart is created with such that the Angels are so immensely amazed by it. 

You know why? 

Because your heart will find happiness and excitement and gratitude in the smallest thing that Allah did for you.

So in one hadith, the angels one day say to Allah, Allahu Akbar. And Allah says to the angel, "they are happy and praise Me for just the duniya that I gave them, how would they be when they see what I have reserved for them?" And the angels said "they would praise You even higher" :’

Allahu Akbar <3

Perhaps ya Allah, I really miss You

When Prophet Musa a.s. said 'perhaps Allah will guide me' on the way to Madyan, the word 'perhaps' here is not meaning that he doesn't trust Allah, in Arabic , its hard to translate it to English, but the word here actually means like,.. you were thinking good of Allah. like ' Perhaps later when I got home I got good news from Allah' for example...

So for those who have hard time or uneasy heart due to anything...
Tell Allah...

***
Ya Allah when you grew me up,
And I ve been from the past you had grew me up,
For everything is so beautiful ya Allah
Both tears and laughters....
thank You ya Allah

Ya Allah I am nothing really..
Sometimes from where I've been
I questioned things to understand better ya Rabb..
But deep in my heart, I knew if theres something hurt me
Its definitely not from You ya Rabb
Because You always want the goodness for me and all of Your creations:'

So if theres something hurt about the law or anything in ad Deen ya Allah
It must have been how some mankind misunderstood Your words..
or how they have misused and misinterpret Your words
and misled others for their desire..

For if they don't know the consequences and the pain that they have caused to others..
But You know
And You count
And You record :'
You listen and You feel me..

For sometimes I don't understand everything ya Allah
No matter how I learn.. sometimes I don't understand ya Allah
But its okay ya Allah
Its okay...

Alhamdulillah I am a woman ya Allah
Alhamdulillah You have created me a muslim and a woman being :'

Therefore ya Allah..
When I don't understand anything
in my tears... I trust You.

:'

I don't mind anything ya Allah
Just let me keep on trusting You..
Let me just trust You ya Allah

Its okay really..

Because deep inside, I know..

Perhaps Allah want to give me something more out of this.

Perhaps it will ease for me later on and soon..

Perhaps my future will be more beautiful than I've ever thought

Perhaps Allah will grant me what I hope for and what I ve dreamt for in duniya and akhirah..

Perhaps, if theres something that is not meant for me, Allah will replace something better earlier so that I won't be much hurt

Perhaps if it meant for me, Allah will let my heart rest in full trust of Him and convince my heart that it really meant for me

Perhaps Allah will guide me always to the truth

Perhaps Allah really want me to love Him so much

Perhaps one day I can be much beloved to Him like the companions of Rasulullah s.a.w.

Perhaps Allah really reserve for me unparalleled love

Perhaps Allah has built a home for me in Jannah near to Him..

Perhaps He is taking such a good care of me and my family

Perhaps Allah really miss me..

Perhaps He want me to be with Him so much..

Perhaps... He is jealous when I'm thinking about people and duniya more than Him so He want me to think about Him always...

Perhaps He do really talk good things about me to the Angels up in the heaven

Perhaps He is planning an amazing and incredible journey of mine ahead...

Perhaps on the Day of Judgement, He will call me, my love :'

Perhaps He will grant me love that is true..

Perhaps Allah will give me more than sufficient sustenance

Perhaps Allah will let my heart love Him more than anything...

Perhaps Allah will always guide my heart...

Perhaps Allah want the best for me always...

*

Perhaps ya Allah... I really do miss You..

Perhaps I just miss You.

Stay

What is the difference between making du'a to Allah, and pouring your heart to Allah?

Making du'a to Allah is when u want something, of your needs and you ask of Him.And Allah said 'Call upon Me, I will respond to you'

But there is something so special than that. It is pouring your heart to Allah.

Pouring your heart to Allah is when you are not sure what to ask, because wallahi you don't know anything best for you. Therefore...

Ya Allah I let You save me.

Ya Allah, for what had scared me, never ever scares You.

For what has weaken me, never ever weakens You.

Ya Allah for what has hurt me, never ever hurt You.

Ya Allah for what has consumed me, never ever consume You.

***

Allah has 99 different beautiful names, that firstly the first thing that Allah taught a human being, Prophet Adam a.s.

And theres so much special reasons behind that. Because every of His 99 names perfected our needs. SubhanaAllah.

Allah says, He is Ya Waduud (the Most Loving) meaning there is no one could love you more than Him.

Allah says, He is Ya Wahhab (the Most Giving) , means there is no one could give you more than Allah. SubhanaAllah.

Allah says He is Ya Sami' (the Most listening) means there is no one could ever listen to your wants, your needs, your pouring heart more than Allah.

***
Never leave the One who endears Himself to you so much. For wallahi, you are more to Him, than everyone else you had ever love. So, stay my dear, don't go.

Stay with Allah.

Feel me ya Allah...

Ya Allah don't deprived me being with You, feeling Your love, waking up tahajud and in tears because of You for that is my happiness. Ya Allah that...is my happiness :'

Undeserved

When you make du’a to Allah

And somehow what you ask for

you really feel undeserved for it

still you have high hopes for Allah

because you feel how much He can just give

and bless you with what your heart need

... you cannot help but to cry

When you remember all the blessings

that you have now and before

and you really feel undeserved for it

because of much mistakes and wrongs 

and much forgetful you are to thank Him so much

…you cannot help but to cry

When you think of how much Allah 

has always be there and stay for you

even when in a day when you are

so busy with this worldly lives

and yet He never fail to help you so much

to accomplish your doings so much

…you cannot help but to cry

And sometimes that meaningless of yourself

and the nothingness you felt within

for much of helpless you are

when you said ‘ya Allah I really do not deserve’

…you cannot help but to cry

***

Ya Allah I really do not deserve. 

For all the things you have given me

And much that you have put me through…

I want to tell You even though You knew

I am so much not deserving of all of this..

And for the thanks that could never be enough..

Thank You ya Allah. 

So much. :'

Allah loves you better

Allah really loves you better. Loves you better than yourself so much.
Sometimes what you ask for is really bad for your heart and yourself and may cause your heart to ache so much. So He didn’t grant you that specific du’a that you made.

Now The name of Allah He is The Most Protector comes in and you need it more than the name of Allah, The Most Giving. Or both. Because He is the most protecting , he is giving you protection from what you want that could harm you. SubhanaAllah.

Because really… tell me. Do you really know the unseen? That you thought is good for you, really do you really know that it brings happiness to you?
You don’t know.
Admit it you really don’t know if its going to hurt you or bring happiness to you.
You may thought it brings happiness but in all honesty you really don’t know.

Ya Allah I really don’t know.

And thats when you realize that Allah loves you better than yourself.

I can feel this when Allah said in the Quran about He is the Knower of all things…
'Why don’t you trust in My wisdoms? I know whats good for you, why don’t you trust in Me?'

SubhanaAllah.

And thats when you ask for Him to interfere with your life. Because the matter fact is that Allah loves me better than myself.
What I want for me might hurt me and He doesn’t want ever to cause harm for me.

So sometimes He didn’t give yet or specifically grant your du’a because He loves you better.
Why don’t you trust Him?

Even though I was given much

Sometimes we feel like we want to ask so much,

we make du'a so much,

theres so much we want, 

knew that, its okay.

Knew that, Allah is much more.

I mean...seriously.. 

Why would you settle for drops when you can have the ocean?

Why settled for less?

You know why when our Prophet s.a.w. say 'to make dua so that we be granted not only Paradise, but the highest level of Paradise, Jannatul Firdaus' 


 SubhanaAllah.

Even though, tell me, do you think we deserve to be there,?

Or do you think we are even deserve to be asking Allah to be there?

But our Prophet s.a.w such that, he knew Allah's Mercy is so overwhelming for His creation, and thats why, He ask us to pray to Allah so much so that we be among those who are so close to Allah in Jannah, yakni the highest of level in Jannah. And get the best ever place.

Masha Allah.

So knew that Allah is much more than the whole of what you want. And He intends to give you blessings limitless, without count, do you remember He said so in Surah 'Ali 'Imran?

And..

"Because of His Mercy is so overwhelming, I cannot resist but to ask more and more and want more and more even though I was given much"

SubhanaAllah.

Everything that I've ever wanted

All my life, I've never thought this way. 

Until at one point of time I realized that everything I've ever wanted could not be anything in this worldly lives. Everthing that I've ever wanted lies in Jannah; where our Home is and where everything you ever wish for is granted. 

In your life you could never depends on wanting only 'this thing' or 'that thing' or 'such things'. Because if you do that, this duniya will hurt you. The things that you wanted; they will not fulfill your expectations correctly. Because your heart is not made to want something so so much in this duniya. This duniya cannot grant you the 'wishes' to the level that you were expected. You have so much more to expect and to want in the end of them.

But then you may struggle to achieve success or happiness in this duniya. But somehow in your struggle, you tend to pour your heart out into it so so much that you feel 'this is everything that I've ever wanted'. So when the outcome is different from what you have expected, you will feel broken.

But that really, should not be happening.

In your struggle of this duniya, your heart should deeply yearns for something else that lies with God and akhirah (the afterlife). It should not be here. It could not be here.

Allah has created Prophet Adam a.s. ; the first human being and He gives him Home in Jannah,

So there is the place where we all started. Jannah.

Our home is belong to the Heaven and thats why everything we desire lies in God and the place where there is no fear and sadness.

Cause your heart is made to wish for more than this.

Much more than this.

Love.

Nadia Syamila

Wishes Do Come True

If we really understand this...

When I reflected upon the hadith of Rasulullah s.a.w.,

He said that not a person who dua with this du'a but Allah will definitely grant his prayers.

I was astonished.

Wow.

How could this simple du'a could be extremely high value at the side of Allah?

MashaAllah.

So when you read this, probably you have heard or learned this..

But it seems just a story. Or something that you had to know and .. thats all.

However, try to really put your heart into this..

Imagine that you are really there.. Imagine that you witness this in real...

And the splash of ocean hits Prophet Yunus a.s. hardly. He was injured, suffocated and try to breath in the middle of huge waves of water. He was scared and sweat and tired. And the whale swallowed him; into its big mouth into the stomach.

The Prophet a.s. was now in its stomach. His heartbeats was so fast that he heard them all the way. He was crying. He was alone.

*****************

Can you imagine how would it be to be in a whale's stomach? The darkness... the bones.. the bloods. Subhana Allah.

For days and nights inside the whale, his heart, his lips never stop whispering this du'a...

لا إلهَ إلا أنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظّالِمِيْنَ

‘There is no deity but You. Glory be to You! Verily, I have been among the wrongdoers’ (Quran 21:87)

And why this du'a is so valuable that if a person recite it wholeheartedly, Allah will grant his prayer and what he wants?

Because you said with all your heart that there is no God to be worship except for Allah, and the rewards is the same as the whole duniya and inside it. So inshaAllah everything that you want good for your duniya and akhirah, Allah will grant them♥

Subhana Allah!

And you know the story, Allah saved Prophet Yunus a.s.

He saved him :')

Benda yang lebih hebat dari apa yang kita nak

Tau tak apa yang lebih hebat dari benda yg kita nak?

When you really wish for something, you will sacrifice. You will sacrifice your sleep just to meet Him in prayers. You will keep praying and make du'a. You will always believe everything that is impossible to you, possible to Him. You will finally do something that you once thought it is impossible.

Big sacrifices.

Then again, that happens if you really want something.

And you'll notice significant differences in your daily lives. You search Him more. Everything seems so easy for you. Everything in duniya is just so easy for you. There always be help. You always feel somehow peace and just happy.

Note that you are not yet be given something that u really want. That you hope and make du'a always in your prayers.

But you already feel the tenderness and the happiness.

Till you suddenly... sit in your prayers. You feel something.

Its true, you heart still want something in duniya for return. And thats why you did so much. You search Him so much.

But suddenly, when you know what you really want which is more than that. You still want success, u still want this duniya..

But you realize that what your heart really yearns for is being close to Him.

And you realize He had given you that.

MashaAllah.

And you keep on search for Him, asking prayers to Him,

so that you become more closer each day closer to Him.

Now what's worth more than being close to Allah...

What's worth more than being always remember Him?

How do you beg to Allah?

My dear brothers and sisters,
When you dont get what you want, you ask ..
"Why,...whyyy.. did'nt He gave you what you want? Why did'nt Allah granted your prayers? " And you feel angry.

Sisters, Brothers..
Have you thought a moment. And question yourselves.
How do you beg to Allah?? How.. Did you cry?
Did you feel your heart pounding so fast, fearing of Allah.. and tears flowing your cheeks..
Did you willing to sacrifice ur sleep to do tahajjud and cry in the middle of sajdah just to ask for your prayers to be granted...
Did you sweat a lot when you pray, and you did not give up.. you keep on asking.. Did you? Did you?

Did you remember how Rasulullah S.A.W. pray to Allah? 6 to 7 hours at night waking, and reciting long Surahs, a bucket of tears flowing his eyes.. because he fears.. masha Allah! He fears Allah so much..

Where are we now? Did you prepare the day when no life exists except Allah Al Mighty, who stands alone on His own The Most Powerful to every single thing? Subhana Allah. To Him we come, and to Him we belong.

I am Forever Grateful to You :')

Ya Allah! I'm forever grateful to You, whatever I say could never be enough.. ♥ :')

Alhamdulillah For Everythings.. Thank You Allah.. For Always Be With Me.. I Am Strong When You Are With Me, Because You Give Me Strength To Live ♥ ♥ ♥

Mesti kita semua selalu tertanya2 mengapa kadang-kadang.. kita tak dapat apa yang kita inginkan kan? 

Well have you ever think WHY?  

Maybe because we never felt enough of what we have right now right here :'(

Allah had promised in Al Quran that Allah will increase our bounty if we are grateful <3

Trust me.. 

When we feel grateful of what we have... we will not be sad or hurt because of what others had more than us. 

AND thats make me FEEL awesooomeeee !

And you will feel soo peaceful and happy.. because you know Allah gives you what you need :')

Remember.. the nikmah will be given to those who work hard for it and keep on prayer..

Man jadda wa jada wa man zaro'a hasoda

Sesiapa yang bersungguh sungguh pasti mendapatkannya :') 

'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]..." [Quran 14: 7]