For every moment

Ya Rabb, tonight as I was sitting here and have a thought about You and my life, thank You ya Rabb. I can’t express by words of how much peaceful I am right now, feeling so content and happy in a way that I felt just so peaceful and rest ya Rabb. I guess I ve been longing for this feeling for a long time. Ya Allah, thank You for my family so much ya Rabb. I can’t ask You more about my family because it is such a beautiful gift from You ya Allah. 

Ya Allah, I used to fight for why things are not happening and why things are happening, I remember when I used to battle inside my heart for why I feel things and why I don’t, why I was in pain, why I have to go through these and these, until I realise at one point of time when I stop fighting with Your decree ya Rabb, but accept it with gratefulness. 

Ya Rabb, I am so thankful that You instil in me peace that I ve been longing for, strength that I ve been wishing for, and most of all happiness that I ve been dreaming of. Truly ya Rabb, contentment of heart is only achieved by pleasing You and remembrance of You and being grateful much of what You have decreed upon me. 

Ya Rabb, for this peaceful night, thank You ya Rabb… How do I? What should I…said to You…to express my gratitude enough, how do I be grateful to You as much as You deserve ya Rabb.. because You deserve so much more. So much more..

Thank You ya Allah.. for every moment in my life. 

Taste of Paradise

I feel like this Ramadan, is really fast.

It reminds me of how this life is like a blink of an eye.

It scares my heart, because I remember when Allah says 'You only live for a short while in this duniya if only you know'

And though how much this Ramadan is really fast...

It teaches me "with hardship there are a lot of ease". Just as Allah mentioned in the Quran.

I cannot be thankful enough to my Lord whom the Giver of the ability to taste a lot of delicious food especially during breaking the fast.

I cannot be thankful enough to my Lord for giving me the glimpse and taste of Jannah.

Being able to spend this Ramadan with my beloved family is a taste of Paradise from Allah to me.
Because Paradise won't feel like Paradise if you are alone and not with your beloved for example, your family.

Ya Allah..
The companionship that You grant me during this Ramadan with my family is so beautiful ya Rabb, thank You..
For every laughter my mum and my dad made, and I captured it into my heart and my mind.. thank You ya Allah..
For every smile and adventurous moment with my siblings, that I captured it into my heart and my mind... thank You ya Allah.

Ya Allah, I really don't know when will my time end, or when will their time end...
I don't know when will I go... or when will my beloved family go...
I don't know that ya Allah.. :'

but thank You ya Allah.. Thank You for this moment and this taste of Paradise in duniya.

I feel like this Ramadan is a forgiveness and mercy from You to us so much.

For every of our tiredness and every slept that You have given us, thank You ya Rabb.

I know You promised us Lailatul Qadr in this blessed month of Ramadan.
And we really want to be granted the night of better than 1000 months ya Rabb.

But I hope we know this by heart... sincerity goes all the way.

Dear people, ikhlas is really beautiful.

When we really did something, any good deed, purely, ikhlas, sincerely for Allah,

"sincerely ya Rabb this is for You, this is for my thankfulness towards You"

know that it is much more than receiving rewards of 1000 months.

It is much more because dear people, it is called ikhlas.

It is called ikhlas becoming Allah's creations. Accepting the good and the hard time of this life because we are the servants of AlMighty.

Ikhlas being with Allah and taste the happiness of worshiping Allah in prayers and in remembrance of Him in this blessed month of Ramadan.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for every happiness and tranquility in prayers.

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May Allah grant us ikhlas and full sincerity for Allah so much in this beautiful month of Ramadan.

In rainy days

I saw beautiful things in tiredness and in rainy days

Speechless

Allah is so nice. <3

The unseen realms

Istikharah's du'a

اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَسْتَخِيرُكَ بِعِلْمِكَ وَأَسْتَقْدِرُكَ بِقُدْرَتِكَ وَأَسْأَلُكَ مِنْ فَضْلِكَ الْعَظِيمِ فَإِنَّكَ تَقْدِرُ وَلَا أَقْدِرُ وَتَعْلَمُ وَلَا أَعْلَمُ وَأَنْتَ عَلَّامُ الْغُيُوبِ اللَّهُمَّ إِنْ كُنْتَ تَعْلَمُ أَنَّ هَذَا الْأَمْرَ خَيْرٌ لِي فِي دِينِي وَمَعَاشِي وَعَاقِبَةِ أَمْرِي فَاقْدُرْهُ لِي وَيَسِّرْهُ لِي ثُمَّ بَارِكْ لِي فِيهِ وَإِنْ كُنْتَ تَعْلَمُ أَنَّ هَذَا الْأَمْرَ شَرٌّ لِي فِي دِينِي وَمَعَاشِي وَعَاقِبَةِ أَمْرِي فَاصْرِفْهُ عَنِّي وَاصْرِفْنِي عَنْهُ وَاقْدُرْ لِي الْخَيْرَ حَيْثُ كَانَ ثُمَّ أَرْضِنِي

“O Allah, verily I seek the better [of either choice] from You, by Your knowledge,

and I seek ability from You, 

by Your power,

and I ask You from Your immense bounty. 

For indeed You have power, and I am powerless; 

You have knowledge and I know not; 

You are the Knower of the unseen realms. 

O Allah, if You know that this matter is good for me with regard to my religion,

my livelihood and the end of my affair then decree it for me,

facilitate it for me, and grant me blessing in it. 

And if You know that this matter is bad for me with regard to my religion,

 my livelihood and the end of my affair 

then turn it away from me and me from it; 

and decree for me better than it, wherever it may be, and make me content with it.”

The smallest thing

For, Allah He is ya Sami’ 

The All Hearing and All Listening…

How do I tell you this name of Allah so much?

You know when your friends talk to you so much that you listen to your friend, but suddenly in between time that is running, your mind was somewhere else and thinking good about Allah and said in your heart 'ya Allah perhaps You will give me guidance and love always…’.. that time when your friend doesn’t know your heart is talking to Allah, at that time….knew that, He heard you. 

SubhanaAllah. :'

And then you know when you walk upon street at dark night where theres chill and fear, that silence surrounding you but you keep on walking, trusting Allah will protect you and your heart reciting His words, that is the time… that moment.. knew that He up there.. He listened to you. 

For everywhere you go, between the time, between the hurt, between the laughter, between the tears, between the feelings and emotions, He heard you attentively.

Allah doesn’t just listen to you. But He give you, His full attention. 

Your heart is tiny... really tiny. But what your heart want, is limitless and endless. Have you ever wonder why? Because your heart, your soul are created to be with Him in Paradise where its limitless, where its endless and nothing that will break you. There is where your heart belong. 

But really knew that your heart is created with such that the Angels are so immensely amazed by it. 

You know why? 

Because your heart will find happiness and excitement and gratitude in the smallest thing that Allah did for you.

So in one hadith, the angels one day say to Allah, Allahu Akbar. And Allah says to the angel, "they are happy and praise Me for just the duniya that I gave them, how would they be when they see what I have reserved for them?" And the angels said "they would praise You even higher" :’

Allahu Akbar <3

Hayatud' Duniya

For 2015,

Ya Allah, for this year have been such a memory for me. Such a turner in my life, an adventurous one, sometimes I was being tested and alhamdulillah the tests had change me inshaAllah to be better in a way that I could not expected. But most of all…

Your blessings are so much to me ya Rabb. I can’t remember how much delicious and extremely delicious food that You have provided for me this year because it just so much, wallah. And I am sorry for not be able to thank You enough ya Allah. And You had given me so much ya Rabb, I could never count Your gifts because it just so much.

For this year, I have experience incredible and beautiful things between me and You, ya Allah I pray to You so that You never let me, my family, my sahabah and my loved ones to go astray from You ya Rabb, and so that You love us so much till You make us of those who are so happy with You.

Ya Allah for the pain is blessings, and the blessings is blessings and altogether is happiness and sadness and tears and laughter, thank You ya Rabb. My life could never have been better well planned other than what was written by You the best author, fashioner, designer and planner of my blessed journey in this hayatu’d duniya.

For beauty and success in everything of me that You created is all Yours, and I could never praise You enough for that. For my beloved mum and my beloved dad , thank You ya Rabb, though I far from them and they are too, and sometimes I have missed them a lot and only You know my heart but its okay because I know... distance makes the hearts go fonder. I shall lower my wings to them and love them as much and more by the help and the love and mercy from You. May You make me and those who read this from among of solihin sons/daughters.

For 2016,

Ya Rabb, You have me in Your hand. I shall lay my trust on You. Let me travel this world with You, hold me and never let me go ya Rabb. Held me close to You. And even closer. Touch my heart with Your words of Quran, beautify my akhlaq and all of me, outside and inside me and my heart and my soul. Ya Allah don’t let me be too happy till I forget You and don’t let me too sad till I give up in hope and Your affection. Love me and let me love You. Filled me with mercy and nearness to You, pleasure and eagerness to meet You. Let me feel content everyday in my life ya Waduud. And ya Allah, bless my family and my loved ones more than everything You have been given me. And if this whole writing touch a person heart, then bless that person more ya Rabb.

Ya Allah, Thank You.
Thank You so much for everything.
Alhamdulillah ya Rabb.
Thank You for creating me.

I am happy with You

Wallahi. I swear by Allah. Those who are in deep pain or hurt. Your relief is close. Use the time when you hurt the most to be only. Only with Him.

The only route of happiness, and this is a reminder again for me also so much. I think I write this many times. Really. Is to be really in deep link with Allah.

Allah gives you barakah in everything u do when you put Allah first in your life. For example when you study,Allah increase your concentration

Do you know statically,those who pass with excellent mark at most universities are those who memorize the Quran? Wow, I heard it was 90% of the students.

I learn a valuable lesson. SubhanaAllah. I wish to share it with everyone who deeply hurt but something called duniya. You need to detach.

And its easier said than be done. Like really, in my life, like everyone has different struggle of course,but each of you has different fear.

My fear is deeply start in my childhood & I won't open about this.But its all duniya. Wallahi.Like even people, its duniya. So I learn...

I learn what Allah has thought me the most. To fear only Him.Not duniya.Not people.Don't fear about this duniya, you will be returned to Him.

One day I was deeply hurt and I slept dreaming somebody say to me.'All in this duniya is belong to Him and it is His. All in the akhirah is belong to Him and it is His'

You see. No matter what we belong to Him. All in this duniya belong to Him. So He do whatever He wills. You don't control anything.

I learn to realize that He created me for Him. Solely for Him. To love Him. To worship Him to be with Him always, not duniya. You know why?

Because just being with Him, He will make the duniya ease for you.

And thats the truth. Wallahi.

Sometimes we forgot that He misses us so much, especially when our mind and heart is only focus more in duniya.So we need to learn to detach

Sometimes we need to go away.Go away to Him. Your escape route is Allah. He will take care of your heart.He will provide the happiness for you

I ve never been much happier in my life till I feel the sweetness of being with Him. Wallahi theres no better feeling.

When you are with Him, you are happy. Allah put content in your heart. Because He creates you my dear all of you. He is the One who can make you happy.

You are beloved to Him. He is the One who can provide you unconditional love. Love that has no parallel. Love that is so much till you felt awe.

When you really feel the love of Allah, you will feel so ya Allah,What can I say? Let me tell you the ayah of Surah Maryam it is so beautiful.

Allah said to those who believe and do good deeds, Allah will reserve for him/her love. Unconditional love. Love that you never seen before.

If you feel around really, Allah loves you my brother and sister. Why would you search in anywhere else? He provide u. Feel ur heart beating.

Feel your stomach. Feel your comfortness in your bed. Feel your eyes when you can see things. Feel your touch. Feel your breath.

And tell me... does anyone, or anything could love you better than Allah?

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Ya Allah, I am happy with You my Rabb. So much.

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Feel me ya Allah...

Ya Allah don't deprived me being with You, feeling Your love, waking up tahajud and in tears because of You for that is my happiness. Ya Allah that...is my happiness :'

Forgiveness

Alhamdulillah today Allah has given me an absolute beautiful reminder that I can't enumerate how beautiful it is.
The day of Arafah which is tonight and tomorrow; and the du'as that being made upon this day is so much listened by Allah.So I was really excited.
However when we look at what Rasulullah's du'a it was all forgiveness. And I was subhanaAllah.
I can't, like...
This perfect man whom has forgiven all of his sins, yet his du'a was only to ask forgiveness from Allah so much intensely on the day of Arafah.
I was thinking ya Allah... Rasulullah s.a.w. could ask a lot of things mashaAllah, yet he only ask forgiveness from Allah, abundantly.
Why is it?
SubhanaAllah.
Can u imagine such the best of mankind so humble in himself like all this duniya is not important anymore to him, Rasulullah s.a.w; only the forgiveness of Allah is matter to him.
SubhanaAllah. I was so enthrilled by this character.
Sometimes we want so much a lot from Allah, and really its really okay but how much is that wanting is for the pleasure of Allah?
Why not we make du'a and then for ultimate reasons is for the happiness of Allah instead of our happiness?
MashaAllah
Like for example...
'Ya Allah being closer to You is much more beloved to my heart and myself so don't deprive me of tahajud and tears'
SubhanaAllah, why not we make Allah's happiness priority over our happiness, knowing that His pleased upon us, will cause us to be so happy?

When the heart yearns

You know... happiness is when you appreciate everything that happens to you, either its good or bad. 

When you appreciate, spontaneously you will say and feel in your heart alhamdulillah so much ya Allah. Alhamdulillah. 

The grateful comes in. When grateful is there, its so much easier to feel ikhlas; sincere. 

And when you are sincere, every ibadah you did meant a lot to Allah. 

He appreciates every single thing that you do even when you suddenly said "SubhanaAllahi Wabihamdihi SubhanaAllahil Adheem". This verse is so light in the tongue yet so much heavy in the scales. MashaAllah. 

How much Merciful is Allah towards us? Sometimes we gain unconscious about the presence of Allah, that Allah is there remembering you and taking care of you while you were with your friends or in doing anything with the duniya based.

But if you really feel grateful and ikhlas, you want to thank Allah most of the time and as much as possible. And because of that you wanna be in the rememberance of Allah so much.

Your heart knew that in the rememberance of Allah, your heart will be at rest, peace and just happy.

Therefore, even at times of your heart yearn for anything, it would be based on Allah and connected to Him so much. 

And its so much okay to yearn something that is so much love for the sake of Allah and for the pleasure of Allah.

Because when the heart yearns, it makes du'a and prayers wholeheartedly. 

Because when the heart yearns, it has true belief and faith that Allah will grant your prayers the best that you can ever imagine.

And Rasulullah s.a.w. said increase your hope so much of what you want, knew that for Allah, is not difficult to grant you what you want. Ya Allah!

Don't stop and despair in making du'as to Allah. Keep believing and continue to speak to your Lord for how you feel and everything you ever want for the sake of Him.

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And I really believe that real happiness exists with Allah. 

Everything that breaks apart from Allah may lose itself 

But with Allah... we have everything.

Because I am happy with You

As I am here, far away from the place I’ve been much, I’ve felt much, I’ve grew much.. 

And the most importantly, I am far from my beloved ones, my dear mum and dad, and my family.. 

And sometimes it takes distance to appreciate the value of closeness. 

And sometimes to felt missing is to recognise love.

And even the feeling of ‘miss’ itself is the gift from Allah to us.

And sometimes when you are far from the dearest thing in your heart, it just make you realise that whatever in this world is not lasting. 

But how much kind Allah is, to let you taste this beautiful rahmah of being able to love, to miss and to make du’a for your family and people you love so much with sincerity and care.

And if we as a creation, feel this love…

How much love Allah had for us when He is the one that created the love itself? SubhanaAllah.

And for me to end this, I wanna share with you this heartfelt du’a that is very dear to my heart.

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‘Ya Allah, even my heart, and everything in me and everything that i felt is

Yours Ya Rabb, so let me feel the pleasure of making You happy.

Ya Allah…are you happy with me? Ya Allah.. are you happy with me..?:'

Because I am happy with You Ya Rabb, I am happy with You, my Rabb, so much” :'

Awak boleh bahagia

Awak boleh bahagia.

"My happiness in this life has just begun", she said.

She listened to that very carefully.

Can you live yourself to the fullest and enjoy your life but at the same time receiving rewards continuously without break?

SubhanaAllah.

And that girl said ,by only after one week applying this...

"I found myself sometimes , tears flowing down my cheek, I was by myself.. I'm not feeling hurt or anything to anybody"

And there was a man who lose his temper easily ... and he said

"I am different now. Until at one point that I have to wait for a long time before my appointment with my doctor (he always get angry easily) ...I was okay. I didn't realize the time passed by"

And what is actually that?

Intentions.

You make intention before go to sleep that you wanna have this rest because you want to have the strength to pray. Ya Allah.

And you gain rewards! Every hours of it! MashaAllah.

You want to iron your clothes and you make intention. You iron them because you want to be neat and tidy and Islam teach us to be tidy and clean. And you earn the rewards!

You sit down watching television with your family and you make niah that you want to strengthen the bond between u and ur family because Allah loves that. And you earn rewards MashaAllah!

How easy is that... subhana Allah.

How beautiful and rewarding is that..

Sebab kita juga ada flaws

Assalamualaikum..

Bila kawan kita ke, family kita ke, marah kita.. especially benda yg kita rasa kita tak salah,.

hati kita mesti geram je kan, mcm nak marah balik, sedih dn sbgaimana..

mungkin kita lupa,.. mereka juga tidak sempurna..

kita juga tak sempurna,, kita juga ade flaws, dan mereka juga ade flaws..

jd,menerima mereka seadanya, dan bersabar, adalah sesuatu yang paling indah..

kerana bila kita menerima kita bahagia,

bila kita bersabar kita tenang,

bila kita mengalah, kita memperoleh kemenangan.. subhana Allah!

Jadi cubalah untuk bersabar.. sungguh tiada yg lebih lapang dikurniakan oleh Allah kepada hambaNya melainkan kesabaran.

Bila awk mudah memaafkan, sungguh itu amal yg sgt indah. Maafkanlah dia, kita juga ada flaws.