Dear self

Dear self, 
 I know when you are so hurt, you just feel like want to hurt back especially
 if it involves person that is matter to your heart, Don't. 
Don't hurt back. 
Your compensation is with Allah. 
Remember in the ayah of Surah Furqan, ayah 20 
when Allah says 'And we made some of you as a test for one another. 
Would you be patient? Allah is indeed the Most Seeing'. 
Ya Allah Allah ask me, 'would you be patient?' :' 

I'm so sorry ya Rabb.

Your Greatness

Ya Allah, if I knew that when You forgive me,  Your Greatness will decrease and when You punish me,  Your Greatness will increase,  I would not ask You to forgive me.  But knowing You, Your Greatness is such that by forgiving me and not punishing me,  Your Greatness will not decrease or increase,  hence ya Rabb, please...  forgive me, my heart and my soul. Forgive me.

Race towards His Forgiveness

I never really so much touched listen to a recitation of specific ayah that I love so much.
And this two ayah that he recited, is two of my most favourite ayahs in Surah al Hadid.

20. 57:20 
    
21. 
    
22. Know that this worldly life is no more than play and amusement, 
23. 
    
24. and boasting among you, 
25. 
    
26. and an increase in wealth and children. 
27. 
    
28. It is like plants that are supplied by an abundant rain, 
29. 
    
30. which appear pleasing to those who do not appreciate. 
31. 
    
32. But then they dry up and turn yellow, and become useless hay. 
33. 
    
34. In the Hereafter there is severe retribution, 
35. 
    
36. and forgiveness from God and approval. 
37. 
    
38. This worldly life is no more than a deceiving enjoyment. 

           57:21

20. Race towards forgiveness from your Lord, 
    
21. 
    
22. and a Paradise whose width is as the width of the heaven and the earth, 
23. 
    
24. prepared for those who acknowledged God and His messengers. 
25. 
    
26. Such is God's grace that He bestows upon whomever He wills. 
27. 
    
28. God is the Possessor of Infinite Grace. 

***

57:20

Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya kehidupan dunia itu hanyalah permainan dan senda gurauan, perhiasan dan saling berbangga di antara kamu serta berlumba dalam kekayaan dan anak keturunan,

seperti hujan yang tanam-tanamannya mengagumkan para petani; kemudian (tanaman) itu menjadi kering dan kamu lihat warnanya kuning kemudian menjadi hancur.

Dan di akhirat (nanti) ada azab yang keras dan ampunan dari Allah serta keridhaan-Nya. 

Dan kehidupan dunia tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan yang palsu. 

57:21

Berlumba-lumbalah kamu untuk mendapatkan ampunan dari Tuhanmu dan 

syurga yang luasnya seluas langit dan bumi,

yang disediakan bagi orang-orang yang beriman kepada Allah dan rasul rasulNya.

Itulah karunia Allah yang diberikan kepada siapa yang Dia kehendaki.

Dan Allah mempunyai karunia yang besar.

***

When I read the first ayah of this two, my heart dropped so much. Because this duniya is delusion, the enjoyment that deludes you. 

And sometimes the world really deludes you...:'

Allah now mention the next ayah what should we do if we are in delusion...

Allah says.. 

Race..

Chase...

Race and chase and compete towards the Forgiveness of Allah :'

Ya Allah. 

Because this is duniya. 

And we are human. 

The pleasure and enjoyment of duniya will eventually sometimes, delude you. 

But no matter how deluded you are, Allah's door is open. :'

No matter what happened to you, Allah's door is open.

So come back to Him.

Race and chase His forgiveness. 

:'

And you'll find wallahi...

He has always forgiven you. 

:'

And for the name of Yours ya Allah, The Most Forgiving...
Thank You so much. 

I am sorry

Ya Allah I m sorry :'

this duniya has deluded me :'

When I am ungrateful

Ya Allah,

Today I saw a picture of a women with no functional limb ..
Ya Allah bless her with highest Jannah in Paradise ameen :'

Ya Allah, indeed yet she is smiling so much in happiness ya Allah

So content with everything You had given her

Ya Allah.. I am sorry..

How bad I am.. :'

I am sorry for every each minute when I am not grateful :'

I am sorry...:'

Test me softly...

Sometimes when we are being tested...
apart from having really good thoughts of Allah which is a necessary,
We have to have muhasabah.

Sometimes we do so much wrong, without we realising it.
The mistakes that we did, we have to think about it and make istighfar always.

When it comes to mistakes especially to people, you need to mend it by ask forgiveness.
And ask Allah so much to help you.

You know.. I really like this du'a
ya Allah dont punish me when I did mistakes, yet forgive me and gives me rahmah (i take this du'a from Surah al Baqarah the last ayah)

So beautiful right?
Because we are not perfect, we make mistakes.
Sometimes we feel so bad.

"Sometimes I really hate myself. But Allah never"

Sometimes we make mistakes due to rush and impatient.
We forgot to think rationally first and ask Allah to help you to pursue the next step.
We really forgot that we need Him every single thing that we do.

So when we have muhasabah, theres deep feeling of regret in your heart.
And the regret is so much pain.
That it makes you cry to Allah.
That makes you feel and say

'Ya Allah why did I do that? Why didn't I asked Allah for Your help first to pursue what should I do?"

And let the tears purify our heart so much.
And then you have to believe. Extremely believe that Allah has overlook your mistakes.
Allah already forgives you.
The reason you keep on asking forgiveness is to be closer to Allah.
But you have to have yaqeen that Allah has forgiven you.

He created you and want you to exist in this world. Why would you want you to be not exist?
Didn't you count all the blessings He has given you?
If Allah AlMighty trust in you, that you can face this trials and tests, thats why He put you into this tests, why not you trust yourself?
And ask Allah to help you so much?

You know.. Sometimes I really understand why Allah tested me. He wanna teach me the quality of a true mu'min so much.. But you see, I am really weak
I am created softly and extremely fragile...So i am scared so much of the tests.
And suddenly Allah is so nice to me, He  inspire me in my heart to pray this

"Ya Allah everytime You wanna test me
everytime You wanna teach me ya Allah....
test me softly...
teach me softly...
deal with me with Your utmost gentleness,...
because I am really weak ya Allah...
Be soft so much to me ya Allah...
You are the One who is The Most Gentle "

:'

Sometimes I feel like

Ya Allah... for being happy when I think about people instead of thinking about You...
I am sorry...
For loving people much that I cry...
I am sorry...
For an hour that passed without remembering You...
I am sorry...
For telling people about my problems and tears before You..
I am sorry...
For waking up and forgot to niah everything that I do today is for You...
I am sorry...
For when I do prayers and cry not solely because of You but because of other things in duniya
or the happiness that I longing for...
I am sorry...
For sometimes I don't know how my heart thinks about people and duniya more than You in a day...
I am sorry...
For not praise You as much as You deserve to be praised...
I am sorry...
For not struggling in Your cause as much as You worth to be struggled for...
I am sorry
For not able to cry when I have should to when I listen to every single words of You in the Quran...
I am sorry...

I am sorry ya Allah
I am
sorry.
:'

Pertolongan

Kita tak semestinya sentiasa di atas

Dan ada masanya kita juga berbuat kesilapan

Kadang kadang kita berasa sungguh sedih

Tapi Allah itu Maha Pengasih terhadap hamba hambaNya

Percaya lah Allah akan ampunkan kesilapanmu selagi

Engkau mencari Allah.

Bersabarlah.

Allah tau kita tak perfect.

Kita takkan sempurna

Kita takkan sentiasa hebat

Ada masanya kita jatuh....

Tapi,

despite all of that..

Allah still will forgive us

dan bersabar dengan kita

Jadi kita boleh bersedih

Tapi jgn terlalu bersedih

Dan

Jangan sesekali putus asa

Dengan rahmat Allah.

....

Allah pasti tolong kita.

Bangkit

The way of advise.

Kepada ummah yang dikasihi Rasulullah s.a.w.
Masha Allah!
Lihat tak apa fenomena yang terjadi skrg di kalangan ummah kita?

Contohnya:
"eh awk tu dh la selekeh, pakai tudung tk tutup dada"
"tgk rambut dye.... tk pakai tudung masuk neraka bru tau"

Masha Allah! Lihat pada ayat yang sinis, lagi tidak berpedoman ini.. Inikah cara Rasulullah s.a.w. ajar untuk amar makruf nahi munkar?
Atau adakah ini amar makruf nahi munkar at the first place?

Kalian semua, ingatkah pada hadis Rasulullah s.a.w.?
Barangsiapa yg x menunjukkan kasih sayang dan rahmat Allah, pada hari Pembalasan , Allah akan kata terhadap penegur itu "tidakkah kamu melihat betapa besarnya rahmat dan kasihsayang Ku trhdp hambaKu?" maka yang dimasukkan ke dalam neraka ialah penegur itu, dan di syurga adalah pendosa itu. Subhana Allah!

Sedihnya hati ini melihat penegur2 di facebook, dan d tmpat awam, yg x menegur dgn cara yg diajar.

There are 3 principles that you have to follow in Islam in order to correct people, if you not follow the principles you dont have the right to correct people!
1. never correct people when u are angry
2. never correct people in front of others
3. never say you, but say we

Because we shall taste it

I want to remind myself. I want to remind you.
I want to remind ourselves.
I want to feel reminded. Always.

So when Prophet S.A.W. ask, how would you say you are true believer? And he replied
"Ya Rasulullah, I never believe that I will be alive in the evening when I was in the morning. I never believe I will be able to make the next step, when I was taking steps"

Because, shall I tell you dear, we dont know when we die. And when we die theres no turning back to change what we should and supposed to do now. Where are our deeds? :'

His repentance was so great

A man. A sinner.
He is so bad that the entire city banished him. He did something very bad that everybody hate him. He is alone. Nobody care for him. One day he passed away.

Allah sends revelation to Prophet of that time, " one of my beloved close friend has died, go wash him, and prepare him Jenazah and go and announce the village that anybody who prays on him is forgiven"

Allah said the repentance of the man was so great that if he ask forgiveness for all mankind , Allah swears by His majesty and His might, He would forgive all of mankind, but the man was very specific to himself because the man feels that he is very bad sinner.

Subhana Allah! The du'a of the man :
"Ya Allah, if i knew by punishing me your greatness will increases and by forgiving me your greatness would decreases.. i would not ask you to forgive me..
But ya Allah, knowing You, by punishing me, your greatness will not increases (Allah is already so Great) , and by forgiving me your greatness will not decreases, please Allah forgive me! " Subhana Allah!

Malay :
(Ya Allah, sekiranya aku tahu bahawa ,dgn Engkau menghukum aku, kebesaran Mu akan bertambah, dan dengan mengampuni aku kebesaran Mu akan berkurang maka, aku tidak minta untuk Engkau ampuni aku.
Tetapi mengetahui Engkau Yang Maha Besar, tetap dengan kebesaranMu walau apapun tidak bertambah dn berkurang, aku mohon ampunkan lah aku.. subhana Allah! ) Amiin. :'

Closer to Ramadan :')

Yes we are getting closer and closer to the blessed month :')

Next tips to get full of this blessed month is

2. Jihad against our Nafs

Yes, jihad against our own nafs is very very hard.
The world are tempting.

Thats why the Greatest Jihad is to fight our own nafs.

"The Nafs is a spy that tells Shaytan which doors to enter your heart from." (Shaykh Yahya Rhodus)

"Sesungguhnya nafsu itu menyuruh kepada kejahatan kecuali orang yang dirahmati oleh Tuhanku" (Yusof:53)

 Menurut Imam Ghazali : Nafsu boleh dikekang dengan kekangan takwa. Dengan itu ia akan menjadi lemah dan tunduk mengalah. Kewarakan seseorang juga boleh membelenggunya sehingga nafsu tidak berpeluang menjalankan peranannya. Dengan kesedaran bahawa nafsu itu musuh yang akan mendatangkan kecelakaan , ia perlu dilemahkan dengan penghinaan. Jangan sekali-kali diberi muka dan dilayani keinginannya.

Lower our gaze :)

Ingat, bila anda dimana dalam keadaan merasakan berdosa ketika melakukan sesuatu dosa, maka sememangnya ketika itu anda berdosa.

Allah Maha Pengampun.  

Bila kita betul-betul taubat,kte x main2 ketahuilah Allah itu Maha Pengampun. Slps itu tbe2 mcm mne kte tergelincir lg,Ketahuilah lg Allah Maha Pengampun.