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if you know you are grateful, and Allah knows you are grateful,then it doesn’t matter what people think of you. What other people’s opinion on you whether you are a grateful person or not doesn’t matter.
Allah knows and thats all sudah mencukupi.

I got sick too

I can’t persistently and consistently worship You enough my Lord because I am weak and I got sick too and I am inconsistent; but You are consistent, my Lord, strong and never get weakened nor sick and I am ever grateful to You as You deserve more than a persistent worships from Your creators; for all of that You have given me and for all of that You have cherished me but above of them all; for no one is to be worshiped other than You ya Allah

What you've become.

You have the world

Contentment of the heart often lies in situations where people didn't realise it. 
For example, people who had been sick for 1 year finally recover, feels like they have everything when they have health❤
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That is the contentment of heart. ❤ When Allah took you out from the problems that you had and give you blessings, you felt like you have the world. Say Alhamdulillah always❤
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#alhamdulillahyaallahforeverything

You don't remember

You know I would like to share with you something with regards to what happen lately in my life.. You know..when Allah take away what has hurt you, in any situations or problems, when He had took you out and away from all of those problems.. You don't even remember of how painful it was. It was just so contentment and happiness in presence.

For SubhanaAllah Allah is Great❤ #alhamdulillahyaAllah

The Presence

In love with the time flows as it is, I am where i should be at current, I am with whom I supposed to be at the moment and eat,rest and have things Allah had bestowed upon me in this very moment. In love with what presence before my eyes.

Alhamdulillah.

Being gratitude in hardship

Often we percieved trials and pain that we are experiencing is a test of this life.  And in that tests, sometimes as human beings, we made mistakes.

For example when we have fight or misunderstanding with our beloved ones such as family or sahabat or anyone,  we said words that we don't meant it.  We hurt the feelings of people who truly loves us. When we are angry,  our heart and mind cannot think well and said untrue things to people whom we love dearly.

And when the period of hurt is over, it often left with regrets in the heart because 'I shouldn't have said that'.

Sometimes those moments of regrets in our life is a blessing from Allah taala to grant us gratitude.

Remember during the time of Prophet Musa a.s , they were being tested with difficult trials and Allah said so in the Quran.  Allah acknowledge that those people were being tested with difficult tribulations;  theirs' children, theirs' babies were being killed by Fira'un.

SubhanaAllah.  And during that time of hardship..  what is the verse from Allah taala; send down upon Prophet Musa a.s. so that he comfort his nation?

Allah said in the Quran "if you are grateful,  I will increase you"

SubhanaAllah.
In the times of hardship,  Allah told them and us all to be grateful.

And in this ayah, if we look grammatically its said even if you are grateful once,  I will increase you.

MashaAllah.  How nice and kind Allah is to us all,  His beloved creations.

Therefore in every of trials and tests of this life,  try to be grateful of what we have instead of thinking about what we don't have yet or the things that are not happen according to what the heart wants.

For example,  yes we have fight with people that we love because he/she doesn't grant us/ be as per we expected but look at the other characters of that person that are soothing to our heart.

Therefore in this ayah meant to actually appreciate and being grateful for little things and big things that occur in life even at that moment we are facing severe hardship. Because Allah said with one hardship there are many eases.

SubahanaAllah.

Therefore when we see the beautiful things or characters of a person we love or had; be it from our family or sahabat,  we will become so much in gratitude. And alhamdulillah Allah instill love in that person heart for us. Because imagine if those people whom we love so much doesn't love us?

Love alone is enough to be grateful for, alhamdulillah. May Allah increase us love and harmony between us and the people we love dearly.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for everything.
May we see the good in everything and become grateful to You ya Allah in everything we do and everything You had bestow us upon.

Ameen ya Rabb.

Ikhlas in gratefulness

What is gratefulness towards Allah subhanahu wataala? Suppose I wanna give you an example..We didn't make du'a for getting our feets but..

But alhamdulillah with His Mercy He gives us feets alhamdulillah. And may Allah retain what Allah has given us till Jannah.

Sometimes we forgot to thank Allah so much for what has Allah given us.. And sometimes we wish instead that He would not give us.

That is one of the act of ungratefulness. When we got something from Allah and we wish that we didn't get it instead. May Allah protect us..

Sometimes we received things from Allah without asking, we never make du'a to be granted this house or this kind of family for example..

But knew that when Allah had choose to give them to you, without you asking for example, it is by the name of Allah the Most Wise..

And the Most Giving. So all praises to Allah though in trials sometimes we only see the bad side of what Allah has given us.

We have to be grateful sincerely to Allah subhanahu wa taa'la. It involves in things that we get and things that we don't get.

Therefore alhamdulillah ya Allah for everything You have decreed and given us and may You help us through everything..

For every moment

Ya Rabb, tonight as I was sitting here and have a thought about You and my life, thank You ya Rabb. I can’t express by words of how much peaceful I am right now, feeling so content and happy in a way that I felt just so peaceful and rest ya Rabb. I guess I ve been longing for this feeling for a long time. Ya Allah, thank You for my family so much ya Rabb. I can’t ask You more about my family because it is such a beautiful gift from You ya Allah. 

Ya Allah, I used to fight for why things are not happening and why things are happening, I remember when I used to battle inside my heart for why I feel things and why I don’t, why I was in pain, why I have to go through these and these, until I realise at one point of time when I stop fighting with Your decree ya Rabb, but accept it with gratefulness. 

Ya Rabb, I am so thankful that You instil in me peace that I ve been longing for, strength that I ve been wishing for, and most of all happiness that I ve been dreaming of. Truly ya Rabb, contentment of heart is only achieved by pleasing You and remembrance of You and being grateful much of what You have decreed upon me. 

Ya Rabb, for this peaceful night, thank You ya Rabb… How do I? What should I…said to You…to express my gratitude enough, how do I be grateful to You as much as You deserve ya Rabb.. because You deserve so much more. So much more..

Thank You ya Allah.. for every moment in my life. 

Taste of Paradise

I feel like this Ramadan, is really fast.

It reminds me of how this life is like a blink of an eye.

It scares my heart, because I remember when Allah says 'You only live for a short while in this duniya if only you know'

And though how much this Ramadan is really fast...

It teaches me "with hardship there are a lot of ease". Just as Allah mentioned in the Quran.

I cannot be thankful enough to my Lord whom the Giver of the ability to taste a lot of delicious food especially during breaking the fast.

I cannot be thankful enough to my Lord for giving me the glimpse and taste of Jannah.

Being able to spend this Ramadan with my beloved family is a taste of Paradise from Allah to me.
Because Paradise won't feel like Paradise if you are alone and not with your beloved for example, your family.

Ya Allah..
The companionship that You grant me during this Ramadan with my family is so beautiful ya Rabb, thank You..
For every laughter my mum and my dad made, and I captured it into my heart and my mind.. thank You ya Allah..
For every smile and adventurous moment with my siblings, that I captured it into my heart and my mind... thank You ya Allah.

Ya Allah, I really don't know when will my time end, or when will their time end...
I don't know when will I go... or when will my beloved family go...
I don't know that ya Allah.. :'

but thank You ya Allah.. Thank You for this moment and this taste of Paradise in duniya.

I feel like this Ramadan is a forgiveness and mercy from You to us so much.

For every of our tiredness and every slept that You have given us, thank You ya Rabb.

I know You promised us Lailatul Qadr in this blessed month of Ramadan.
And we really want to be granted the night of better than 1000 months ya Rabb.

But I hope we know this by heart... sincerity goes all the way.

Dear people, ikhlas is really beautiful.

When we really did something, any good deed, purely, ikhlas, sincerely for Allah,

"sincerely ya Rabb this is for You, this is for my thankfulness towards You"

know that it is much more than receiving rewards of 1000 months.

It is much more because dear people, it is called ikhlas.

It is called ikhlas becoming Allah's creations. Accepting the good and the hard time of this life because we are the servants of AlMighty.

Ikhlas being with Allah and taste the happiness of worshiping Allah in prayers and in remembrance of Him in this blessed month of Ramadan.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for every happiness and tranquility in prayers.

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May Allah grant us ikhlas and full sincerity for Allah so much in this beautiful month of Ramadan.

Allah's love for me

Tell me, how much I should praise Him..
When I received this much :'

For the love of You that never stop

Ya Allah...

Thank You so much..

For every hope that I made

For every breath that I take

For every love that You've instil in me ya Rabb

For every happiness that I feel

For laughter that I made

For dancing around the house when I feel the joy

For jumping around when I received good news

For making my mum and dad proud of me ya Allah..

For every walk that I take

For every rest that I made

For every words that I write

For every words that I love

For every kindness to me

For every hurt that I feel

For every sadness that I have to encounter with

For every du'a that fills me

For every tears that I made

For the love of You that never stop

For my hope into You..

For every single time..

For every move that I made in Solaah

For every of the recitation of the Quran

For every of Your words that touched my heart

For my heart and my soul

For my loved ones whom I love

For my everything in me that I love so much

For secure that You promised me

For love that You promised me

For the Day that You promised me

For the safety that You will give

Thank You Ya Allah...
For everything Ya Allah
Thank You ya Allah

So much.

When I am ungrateful

Ya Allah,

Today I saw a picture of a women with no functional limb ..
Ya Allah bless her with highest Jannah in Paradise ameen :'

Ya Allah, indeed yet she is smiling so much in happiness ya Allah

So content with everything You had given her

Ya Allah.. I am sorry..

How bad I am.. :'

I am sorry for every each minute when I am not grateful :'

I am sorry...:'

How am I ya Rabb...

I feel like I wanna stay a while,
a longer while in the hospital this night.

And so I did.

Far from what I have known, my heart want to walk for a while.

If I were to tell you what I see, maybe its nothing really.

But the heart sees something.

It sees how much that elder man tiredly pull his own wheelchair.

It sees how the elder woman have a hard time with the family when they visited her.

It sees how much people are suffering for the disease they may never expected will experience.

It sees how the leg can walk easily while others have to use supporter to walk.

It feels a moment.

A moment to understand the pain of other, to understand the hurt of they going through, to feel what has shown in their struggles.
To reflect and think about others more than myself,
more than what I want,
and more than what I hope for duniya wa akhirah.

To actually see the pathway of others may encounter with..

More than I know, I need this reminder always.

Now I understand why Rasulullah s.a.w. ask his sahabah one day, who is among you that this morning, have been solatul Fajr in jemaah (congregation) , spend some of the night by remembering Allah,  fast and visit the sick?

And Abu Bakr stay quiet. Rasulullah s.a.w. ask him, did you...
And he shyly say yes.

I was wondering, why Rasulullah s.a.w. mentioned 'visit the sick' as one of the important deeds that he wanna know?

For  visiting the sick opens your heart and mind so much.
Visiting the sick cleans the heart.
Visiting the sick reminds you that this duniya is temporary for you shall go back to Allah.

Allah is with them whom visits the sick people.
For me, its beautiful to know this.

Ya Allah for everything, thank You.
How can my heart thank You so much...
Would have not been because of You guided me, I would had lost...
Would have not been because of You fed me, I would had been hungry all the time..
Would have not been because of You take care of me, I would have been crashed by anything..

For You, is every thanks and praises ya Rabb..
And to You I shall come back.

How am I ya Rabb?
How am I in Your sight...

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Hayatud' Duniya

For 2015,

Ya Allah, for this year have been such a memory for me. Such a turner in my life, an adventurous one, sometimes I was being tested and alhamdulillah the tests had change me inshaAllah to be better in a way that I could not expected. But most of all…

Your blessings are so much to me ya Rabb. I can’t remember how much delicious and extremely delicious food that You have provided for me this year because it just so much, wallah. And I am sorry for not be able to thank You enough ya Allah. And You had given me so much ya Rabb, I could never count Your gifts because it just so much.

For this year, I have experience incredible and beautiful things between me and You, ya Allah I pray to You so that You never let me, my family, my sahabah and my loved ones to go astray from You ya Rabb, and so that You love us so much till You make us of those who are so happy with You.

Ya Allah for the pain is blessings, and the blessings is blessings and altogether is happiness and sadness and tears and laughter, thank You ya Rabb. My life could never have been better well planned other than what was written by You the best author, fashioner, designer and planner of my blessed journey in this hayatu’d duniya.

For beauty and success in everything of me that You created is all Yours, and I could never praise You enough for that. For my beloved mum and my beloved dad , thank You ya Rabb, though I far from them and they are too, and sometimes I have missed them a lot and only You know my heart but its okay because I know... distance makes the hearts go fonder. I shall lower my wings to them and love them as much and more by the help and the love and mercy from You. May You make me and those who read this from among of solihin sons/daughters.

For 2016,

Ya Rabb, You have me in Your hand. I shall lay my trust on You. Let me travel this world with You, hold me and never let me go ya Rabb. Held me close to You. And even closer. Touch my heart with Your words of Quran, beautify my akhlaq and all of me, outside and inside me and my heart and my soul. Ya Allah don’t let me be too happy till I forget You and don’t let me too sad till I give up in hope and Your affection. Love me and let me love You. Filled me with mercy and nearness to You, pleasure and eagerness to meet You. Let me feel content everyday in my life ya Waduud. And ya Allah, bless my family and my loved ones more than everything You have been given me. And if this whole writing touch a person heart, then bless that person more ya Rabb.

Ya Allah, Thank You.
Thank You so much for everything.
Alhamdulillah ya Rabb.
Thank You for creating me.

It just wow

Being grateful is the essence of being happy. And it needs to be always reminded.

One of the way is to say to yourself... "Didn't you see Allah give you this and that (remember the countless ni'mah)?"

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Learn about knowledge of ad-Deen is so exciting mashaAllah.

And let me tell you the secret of learning is to repeat learning to fully feel moved by it

When your heart is affected, it will be subhanaAllah easy by the help of Allah to implement the knowledge that you learn.

And do you remember Rasulullah s.a.w. said the highest Paradise are for those who have the most good manner? Best of Khuluq-Akhlaq subhanaAllah

So no matter what happen in your life you need to feel so motivated to search Allah more, to know Allah more, to feel Him more to love Him more

And the reward of feeling His presence in your life, feeling His help so near in your life is so much that is indescribable

Can you imagine, when you are being help by Allah... everything you do is so much ease and so much beautiful in a way that He help you so much?

And we subhanaAllah. We. We can't do anything right. Anything good. Anything okay.

Except by the help of Allah.So really, ask of Him for help.

He is waiting for your call to ask of Him,feel this when He says 

'Do u want My help... My servant?' 

'Don't you need Me?' 

Even if its small matter

Even regarding everything. Regarding your heart. Regarding your struggleness, your tiredness, your longing. Ask of His help. Knew that, He is there

And subhanaAllah. Just wait for a while. 

Soon when you receive the help from Allah, 

when you receive the love from Allah, 

it just 

wow.

If I could see clearer

Ya Allah…

For being alive today, another day…

thank You…

for my heartbeat that I can feel within my chest

thank You…

for my eyes…that when the wudu’ filled it in a way that i see everything something special

thank You

for having to type this with my fingers and heart

thank You

for having my family in whatsapp group 

thank You

for the eyes that shed tears

thank You…

for the comfort that You gives me

thank You

for the hope that I hope

thank You

for the window next to me when I see how rain just had company me

thank You

for the drops of water that I hear from the rain

thank You

for the wanting to be love by You so much

thank You

for feeling meaningless and nothingness

thank You…

for feeling in need of You regarding my heart so much

thank You…

for hearing ‘ya Allah’ and my heart deeply feels You

thank You

for the feeling of tears streaming down my skin

thank You...

for having You always to be there for me

thank You

for feeling submit to Your decree

thank You…

and now I am really feel okay ya Allah..

thank You

I know I can’t never thank You enough…but

thank You..

really thank You..

thank You ya Allah…

so much.

Having...

 Kadang kadang kita ingatkan rezeki ni pada duit, Apple, rumah dan kereta. 

Tapi kita lupa bahawa rezeki ni sebenarnya jauh lebih dari tu. 

Tau tak, rezeki ni apabila Allah bagi perasaan kasih sayang dan belas kasihan pada orang di samping kita terhadap kita.

I mean knew that having somebody to love you is an extremely nikmah and rezk from Allah to you. SubhanaAllah 

Now. Cuba kalau Allah tarik perasaan itu? Maksudnya macam ibu dan ayah kita dah tak sayang kita? Adik beradik pun dah tak sayang kita..Mesti kita akan sedih sangat.. Ketahuilah even perasaan sayang ni pun adalah pinjaman dari Allah yang kita kena sentiasa appreciate dan sangat bersyukur. MashaAllah.

Jadi kalau kita gaduh benda remeh temeh tu, beralah je.

Sebab love exist when you realize about the pain if you lose that person.

Remember that family pun Allah bagi pinjam. Selama ini kita hargai tak Allah bagi pinjam family kita dekat kita?
Alhamdulillah.
May Allah beautify our akhlaq so much. 

Even though I was given much

Sometimes we feel like we want to ask so much,

we make du'a so much,

theres so much we want, 

knew that, its okay.

Knew that, Allah is much more.

I mean...seriously.. 

Why would you settle for drops when you can have the ocean?

Why settled for less?

You know why when our Prophet s.a.w. say 'to make dua so that we be granted not only Paradise, but the highest level of Paradise, Jannatul Firdaus' 


 SubhanaAllah.

Even though, tell me, do you think we deserve to be there,?

Or do you think we are even deserve to be asking Allah to be there?

But our Prophet s.a.w such that, he knew Allah's Mercy is so overwhelming for His creation, and thats why, He ask us to pray to Allah so much so that we be among those who are so close to Allah in Jannah, yakni the highest of level in Jannah. And get the best ever place.

Masha Allah.

So knew that Allah is much more than the whole of what you want. And He intends to give you blessings limitless, without count, do you remember He said so in Surah 'Ali 'Imran?

And..

"Because of His Mercy is so overwhelming, I cannot resist but to ask more and more and want more and more even though I was given much"

SubhanaAllah.

Thank You Allah for being So Merciful

You know what. 

I really Don’t know if you would read this. I care that I hope you read, even if its later. But if you don’t. I won’t mind.

Because this will be extra long. 

Because wanna really let my heart write for me.

if you wanna know what I’m going to share.

Because somehow I really could not save alone for myself. 

These feelings I’ve been experience with my Creator. 

When He said to his prophet Dawud a.s. that

'if you want Me to love you, make the people love Me'

And I try my Rabb. Hope you see my heart right now. I try to write this. ya Allah. Even though its hard. And You re the One who help me finding words.

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So dear muslims,

When Allah said this…

it really touched my heart. So much, sometimes its hurt in my chest I couldn’t move myself.

"Has not the time come for the hearts of those who believe to be affected by Allah's reminder?”

Has not the time come my dear brothers and sisters? Has not the time come for us to deeply affected by the words of Him in the Quran and speak to Him in a way that we could cry? Has not the time come for our heart to move by what Rasulullah s.a.w. ,His beloved did and the other solihin that is chosen by Allah did so much for His sake?

Has not the time come for our eyes to shed tears for Him?

Has not the time come?

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You know I used to think about this.

On the day of Judgement later, the day that definitely no doubt will come.

‘Ya Allah how would I be in the day that I will wake up? 

In what condition would I be ya Allah?

And the time when You said that the Hell Fire will be presented and it makes even the prophets bow down and ask You to save them?

How would even I be? 

Ya Allah I can’t even stand the heat of the sun in this earth when its hot, how would I be when the day that the sun will be just one gap from our head?

Ya Allah how would I be when I can’t move because trillions and more humans and the jins and then later on the extremely huge numbers of angels being gathered around and that I only have a space to stand with my two feet?

Ya Allah I can’t even breathe in the crowds..then how would I be, ya Allah can I even breathe?

Ya Allah I wanna ask you how would I stand there when our Prophet s.a.w. said that, that day would be like 50 000 years?

How would I stand ya Allah? 

My legs easily get tired and my body is not strong, and I was created weak ya Allah.. How would I be?

Ya Allah I easily get hungry and thirst , the waiting is 50 000 years would I get to drink the Kauthar water from our beloved Rasulullah s.a.w.?

Really ya Allah…where is my family?

Ya Allah… where is my mother..where is my father?

ya Allah ..where is my family?

ya Allah am I alone?

ya Allah will I be wake up alone?

And then who would going to help me other than You ya Allah?

How do I answer You?

ya Allah How do I answer You when you ask me, why do I did that and that?

How would I answer You when you say why don’t You listen to Me? :''

How do I answer You my Ilah?

And How can I answer You ya Allah?

How even I can answer You my Lord?

my Lord that take care of me, until now, and everything of me, You have fulfilled me so much, how would I even answer back to You ya Allah? :’''

ya Allah ..how would I really be?

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These are the feelings that I felt and I thought of this questions as the answer :-

Is it worth it?

Everything that will be happen.

Is it worth it....when at last you'll be in Jannah(Paradise) , the most beautiful place...forever live happily ever after?

Forever is timeless.

Of course, its worth it. :’)”

Yes I thought that the answer. I mean yes its good. Thats great.

But.

There just something I mean.

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SubhanaAllah. Something just hit me when I knew this hadith. It just. I never knew this before.

You know…

Rasulullah s.a.w. said that on the day that will come, Allah had talked to him about this day. The day of Judgement.

Allah said that 

He will let 70 000 of Rasulullah s.a.w. ummah ( us all ) to go into Jannah

Without any pain and any hurt any waiting,

No suffering, 

Just directly go into Jannah after you wake up on that day “

SubhanaAllah.

And then, being so mashaAllah, Rasulullah s.a.w asked Allah

“ya Allah, I want more”

And Allah said “For every 1000, is another 70 000”

Ya Allah. And total will be 4 900 000 of us all will going directly to Jannah without any judgement, any hisab. And you know what :’'

Allah added “ And three handful of those whom I chose”

Ya Allah!

Let us all make du’a so much to be granted Jannah and go there without any waiting and any pain through the day of Judgement :’'

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You know what break me the most?

Its not that I don’t know the hadith.

But that I didn’t realise before the Mercy of Allah is such that.

How could I not realise that He is so Merciful that He won’t even let those who really make du’a to Him and those whom He please to go through the hisab and the hurt and the pain?

How could I not realise that Mercy of Allah?

Why would.I mean even if I don’t know the hadith how could I not expected this?

Because I have learnt the Mercy of Allah is so subhanaAllah there is none such that generous..so how could I not expected this? :’'

Thank You ya Allah, for being So Merciful :''

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Ya Allah. Let us enter Jannah with no pain, suffering and so that we don’t have to go through the trials of the Day of Judgement. Ameen.