You know what.
I really Don’t know if you would read this. I care that I hope you read, even if its later. But if you don’t. I won’t mind.
Because this will be extra long.
Because wanna really let my heart write for me.
if you wanna know what I’m going to share.
Because somehow I really could not save alone for myself.
These feelings I’ve been experience with my Creator.
When He said to his prophet Dawud a.s. that
'if you want Me to love you, make the people love Me'
And I try my Rabb. Hope you see my heart right now. I try to write this. ya Allah. Even though its hard. And You re the One who help me finding words.
So dear muslims,
When Allah said this…
it really touched my heart. So much, sometimes its hurt in my chest I couldn’t move myself.
"Has not the time come for the hearts of those who believe to be affected by Allah's reminder?”
Has not the time come my dear brothers and sisters? Has not the time come for us to deeply affected by the words of Him in the Quran and speak to Him in a way that we could cry? Has not the time come for our heart to move by what Rasulullah s.a.w. ,His beloved did and the other solihin that is chosen by Allah did so much for His sake?
Has not the time come for our eyes to shed tears for Him?
Has not the time come?
You know I used to think about this.
On the day of Judgement later, the day that definitely no doubt will come.
‘Ya Allah how would I be in the day that I will wake up?
In what condition would I be ya Allah?
And the time when You said that the Hell Fire will be presented and it makes even the prophets bow down and ask You to save them?
How would even I be?
Ya Allah I can’t even stand the heat of the sun in this earth when its hot, how would I be when the day that the sun will be just one gap from our head?
Ya Allah how would I be when I can’t move because trillions and more humans and the jins and then later on the extremely huge numbers of angels being gathered around and that I only have a space to stand with my two feet?
Ya Allah I can’t even breathe in the crowds..then how would I be, ya Allah can I even breathe?
Ya Allah I wanna ask you how would I stand there when our Prophet s.a.w. said that, that day would be like 50 000 years?
How would I stand ya Allah?
My legs easily get tired and my body is not strong, and I was created weak ya Allah.. How would I be?
Ya Allah I easily get hungry and thirst , the waiting is 50 000 years would I get to drink the Kauthar water from our beloved Rasulullah s.a.w.?
Really ya Allah…where is my family?
Ya Allah… where is my mother..where is my father?
ya Allah ..where is my family?
ya Allah am I alone?
ya Allah will I be wake up alone?
And then who would going to help me other than You ya Allah?
How do I answer You?
ya Allah How do I answer You when you ask me, why do I did that and that?
How would I answer You when you say why don’t You listen to Me? :''
How do I answer You my Ilah?
And How can I answer You ya Allah?
How even I can answer You my Lord?
my Lord that take care of me, until now, and everything of me, You have fulfilled me so much, how would I even answer back to You ya Allah? :’''
ya Allah ..how would I really be?
These are the feelings that I felt and I thought of this questions as the answer :-
Is it worth it?
Everything that will be happen.
Is it worth it....when at last you'll be in Jannah(Paradise) , the most beautiful place...forever live happily ever after?
Forever is timeless.
Of course, its worth it. :’)”
Yes I thought that the answer. I mean yes its good. Thats great.
There just something I mean.
SubhanaAllah. Something just hit me when I knew this hadith. It just. I never knew this before.
Rasulullah s.a.w. said that on the day that will come, Allah had talked to him about this day. The day of Judgement.
Allah said that
He will let 70 000 of Rasulullah s.a.w. ummah ( us all ) to go into Jannah
Without any pain and any hurt any waiting,
Just directly go into Jannah after you wake up on that day “
And then, being so mashaAllah, Rasulullah s.a.w asked Allah
“ya Allah, I want more”
And Allah said “For every 1000, is another 70 000”
Ya Allah. And total will be 4 900 000 of us all will going directly to Jannah without any judgement, any hisab. And you know what :’'
Allah added “ And three handful of those whom I chose”
Let us all make du’a so much to be granted Jannah and go there without any waiting and any pain through the day of Judgement :’'
You know what break me the most?
Its not that I don’t know the hadith.
But that I didn’t realise before the Mercy of Allah is such that.
How could I not realise that He is so Merciful that He won’t even let those who really make du’a to Him and those whom He please to go through the hisab and the hurt and the pain?
How could I not realise that Mercy of Allah?
Why would.I mean even if I don’t know the hadith how could I not expected this?
Because I have learnt the Mercy of Allah is so subhanaAllah there is none such that generous..so how could I not expected this? :’'
Thank You ya Allah, for being So Merciful :''
Ya Allah. Let us enter Jannah with no pain, suffering and so that we don’t have to go through the trials of the Day of Judgement. Ameen.