My heart

Now is 11 pm here in this beautiful city of Dublin.
I am listening to Maher Zain -I love you so.
I don't always post about me.
But this night.
While preparing for tomorrow class.
My heart want to write for a while.

I really enjoy this nasheed though.
So beautiful lyrics...
Sometimes I really think...
Like... sometimes...I am really scared..
I wish Allah keep me and my loved ones firm in this Deen..

You see our ummah...
I am really sad when my friends becoming different from they were...
Like we used to remind each other about Allah a lot..
but now... she is different.
But its okay....
I hope and pray that Allah always guide her so much.


Alhamdulillah...
my sadness really dissapear when I think about my sahabat
I am so thankful to have Aini.
She is really my sahabat duniya akhirah.
I dont know if she read this...
but I really love her.

Wallahi.

Today is my dad birthday.
I told him that Paradise wont feel like Paradise without you.
He is happy alhamdulillah.
I really love him.
Sometimes.., when I am here in Dublin... and I am far from my loved ones and my family..
I am really scared...
Especially when it comes to parent
How much time left for me to be able to be their happiness?
And them to be my happiness?

I am forever grateful to You ya Allah.
I really do...
Ya Allah today... a lot of miracle things happen to me...
I just pray to be granted beautiful telekung
And You are so nice to give me...:'
I am so touched ya Allah..
Just the way I wanted...
And someone give me that as a present
Thank You ya Allah...

My boot is torn but
I didnt pray to get boots...
I just feel its okay I have the other one shoes even though its not boot. Even though when it rains.. and my socks are wet.. and its uncomfortable but i really love the other shoes You ve given me ya Allah.
I really do feel okay... I am okay without boot.

But Allah is so nice to me today..
You know,,..
Allah give me two boots :'
Suddenly...my senior left with two boots with perfectly fit my size...
I know its nothing really for some people..
But to me...
I feel so touched..
Ya Allah you are so nice to me :'
I dont even ask you to give me boots... but You give me two boots :'
And its so beautiful :''
Thank You ya Allah....
I am really happy ya Allah.. I really do...

thank You so much ya Allah
thank You so much ya Allah...
And you give me beautiful dresses that I didnt pray for but I really do appreciate them so much
Thank you ya Allah :'

You are so nice to me
Today I remember I want to check on something..something that i unable to access
I cant because its private...
I dont know why I have the urge to check it...
So I pray la ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntum minazzolimin
And suddenly  a few while..
I can access to it..
I dont know really how...
But thank You ya Allah...
I feel so happy that Allah gives me that I forgot why I even want to check..

You are really nice to me...
I dont mind now...
everything really...
Because no matter what I have You
And Ya Allah You always enough for me...

Alhamdulillah...
Ya Allah..help me so much...
like You always do...

I owe You ya Allah...
Everything of me.