Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. I am Nadia Syamila. Welcome to one of places where I pour my heart, my emotions, my feelings and most of the things out. May we inspire each other. Hope we meet in Jannah. Pray for me. And forgive me for my mistakes. Jazakallahukhayr.

Monday, September 7, 2015

My heart

Now is 11 pm here in this beautiful city of Dublin.
I am listening to Maher Zain -I love you so.
I don't always post about me.
But this night.
While preparing for tomorrow class.
My heart want to write for a while.

I really enjoy this nasheed though.
So beautiful lyrics...
Sometimes I really think...
Like... sometimes...I am really scared..
I wish Allah keep me and my loved ones firm in this Deen..

You see our ummah...
I am really sad when my friends becoming different from they were...
Like we used to remind each other about Allah a lot..
but now... she is different.
But its okay....
I hope and pray that Allah always guide her so much.


Alhamdulillah...
my sadness really dissapear when I think about my sahabat
I am so thankful to have Aini.
She is really my sahabat duniya akhirah.
I dont know if she read this...
but I really love her.

Wallahi.

Today is my dad birthday.
I told him that Paradise wont feel like Paradise without you.
He is happy alhamdulillah.
I really love him.
Sometimes.., when I am here in Dublin... and I am far from my loved ones and my family..
I am really scared...
Especially when it comes to parent
How much time left for me to be able to be their happiness?
And them to be my happiness?

I am forever grateful to You ya Allah.
I really do...
Ya Allah today... a lot of miracle things happen to me...
I just pray to be granted beautiful telekung
And You are so nice to give me...:'
I am so touched ya Allah..
Just the way I wanted...
And someone give me that as a present
Thank You ya Allah...

My boot is torn but
I didnt pray to get boots...
I just feel its okay I have the other one shoes even though its not boot. Even though when it rains.. and my socks are wet.. and its uncomfortable but i really love the other shoes You ve given me ya Allah.
I really do feel okay... I am okay without boot.

But Allah is so nice to me today..
You know,,..
Allah give me two boots :'
Suddenly...my senior left with two boots with perfectly fit my size...
I know its nothing really for some people..
But to me...
I feel so touched..
Ya Allah you are so nice to me :'
I dont even ask you to give me boots... but You give me two boots :'
And its so beautiful :''
Thank You ya Allah....
I am really happy ya Allah.. I really do...

thank You so much ya Allah
thank You so much ya Allah...
And you give me beautiful dresses that I didnt pray for but I really do appreciate them so much
Thank you ya Allah :'

You are so nice to me
Today I remember I want to check on something..something that i unable to access
I cant because its private...
I dont know why I have the urge to check it...
So I pray la ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntum minazzolimin
And suddenly  a few while..
I can access to it..
I dont know really how...
But thank You ya Allah...
I feel so happy that Allah gives me that I forgot why I even want to check..

You are really nice to me...
I dont mind now...
everything really...
Because no matter what I have You
And Ya Allah You always enough for me...

Alhamdulillah...
Ya Allah..help me so much...
like You always do...

I owe You ya Allah...
Everything of me.

6 comments:

azni azhar said...

salam kak nadia . i really adore you so much , :) . i really loves all your words . i fall in love with you blog, it is so beautiful , cant even describe with words , this year im going to face pt3 , prayforme kak . :)

Nadia Syamila said...

wassalam dear azni azhar, its so nice of you and im so touched for your words.. alhamdulillah coming from Allah :') May Allah help you so much pt3 dear.. you can do it so much inshaAllah! <3 <3 Take care azni

thevioletgun said...

such beautiful words nadia :)

Nadia Syamila said...

May Allah bless you @thevioletgun

✗ fifiyfitrianiee ✗ said...

I really loves this entry. Indeed. Allah is enough for us. May Allah helps and guides me myself to be a better muslimah. In sha Allah

Nadia Syamila said...

@fifiyfitrianiee alhamdulillah. May Allah bless you duniya wa fil akhirah <3