How could I despair ya Rabb?
You gives to me even when I did wrong
You kind to me even though I was deeply flawed
How could I give up in You Ya Rabb?
You never fails to hear my prayers
You heard me and sent me miracles
How could I give up in Your Mercy ya Rabb?
After all this time,
You still providing me countless of Your Rahmah
You let me see, hear, breathe ya Allah
How could I despair from this tests ya Rabb?
After all my weakness,
Your love towards me is greater and stronger than my own weakness.
Ya Allah, if I can't be the martyrs that fight for Islam,
If my weakness is so much that I did much wrong and
I can't be the one that every second remember You,
If I can't be the one who sacrifices most of every duniya things for Islam ...
And If I can only cry..
If I can only cry when I listen to Rasulullah s.a.w history,
If I can only cry when I heard of the Anbiya' stories,
If I can only cry when I read Your words in Quran...
I cry ya Rabb... I cry...
For the rest of my life...
If I can only cry for You Ya Rabb...
If only tears that I can give to You..
I cry. :'